I have absolutely no ideas of what to write about, so this will be another string of ideas. The reason I have nothing to write about is because, due to exams, I have had to completely bury my conscious ego in order to focus on the things which my ego balked at. Right now I am writing, not from my conscious, but from my subconscious. It feels like a lizard mind which reacts, but does not actually think unless prompted to. And then only so far. Due to a large amount of writing recently, I have needed to prompt that mind to work more efficiently, so I guess there has been some good to these posts. Even so, for months now I have had to do work which was not my own choosing, but rather laid along a path that a me four years prior had chosen. And now my ego can finally start to show itself. It can finally think on other things without detracting from the amount of cognition that goes into the other "necessary" work.
The first thing that I shall do when I am fully free (after my last exam on thurs) is to reflect on my life up until this point. After that I shall need to reflect on whom I consider myself to be, and then whom I wish to be. And finally I shall need to reflect on what paths in life I truly wish to take. It is out of my knowledge what shall come of all this, but of course one can guess. So far my only obligations in the future are to somehow acquire the money to pay off my loans (the only reason I am interested in money beyond a few hobbies I wish to pursue) and enter the Phoenix Program (which teaches young professionals about non-profits). After that I am now aspiring to enter Americorps, and then Peace Corps, but I am not sure that the future me shall have the same aspirations, so I am holding out on those for now. At some point in my life I hope to write a novel (of course), get a television show I am working on produced (I think its a hoot), teach a college class for a semester (one is all I ask), join a commune temporarily (I want to see its sense of community) and skydive. What aspirations do you have in life, or are they all checked off?
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