Lately I have been in freak out mode because I’m almost a senior. Although I’m a senior credit-wise, I’m only a junior year-wise. My goal after graduation is to find a graduate school and fulfill my goal of becoming a Speech Pathologist and working in geriatrics. It really makes me nervous to think that I am, in my eyes, living my undergraduate life in fast forward. I feel as if there are so many things that I want to do before I graduate that I haven’t been able to do quite yet. It seems I have put everything off thinking that this year would never come, but low and behold here it is.
I have been preparing the past 15 plus years for this so I should be ready, but I’m not. I’m very excited to see what the future is going to bring to me and I’m aware it is much better than the alternative, but I just feel as if everything is happening so fast. This feeling of uncertainty in my future is very unsettling to me. When I think of people graduating, I think of people getting married and having kids and paying bills etc., etc., etc. I am nowhere near any of these things and feel I am just too young to be forced out into the real world quite just yet.
My biggest fear is that I won’t get into graduate school and that I will have no backup plan. I am a communications major, but I don’t want to do anything in an organization with communications. I want to do something in a hospital and if I don’t reach that goal I’m going to be most upset with myself. Hopefully, things will work out my way and in 5 years will be working and living in my hometown. While I’m nervous and not quite ready to take on the future, I know there is nothing that I can do to stop it so I might as well accept it and do the best that I possibly can.
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