Miscellaneous Blog Topic II : Mary Kate Curry

It seems that every function or gathering now inevitably results in that near-immortal question of "...so what are you going to do after college?" My goals for the future are fairly lofty; I want to attend some graduate school and ultimately earn a doctorate in theology. This revelation births the subsequent assumption that I ascribe to a Christian tradition, and I am often met with sympathy (by those enlightened enough to reject Christianity but accept it in others), derision (by those who mock Christianity), or a wink and an assumed fraternal friendship (by those who think we share in common a friend in Jesus Christ.) I am not a Christian, by any means, but neither am I agnostic or atheist. Presumptuous and pretentious though it often sounds, I am at this juncture a searcher. I mean this not as the college student who sifts through various Eastern religions; I am no pilgrim of the Hermann Hesse school. No; I know what I want to believe--my search is focused rather on why I am continually drawn to a belief that I cannot help but to reject. Thomas Merton, Walker Percy, and Flannery O'Connor serve as my models now, but I wonder where I will go when their words no longer sustain my journey.